THE APOCOLASPE has started!!!

So this week was kind of interesting. Sunday I wasn't really feeling good. And Monday me along with nine other norte ameriacanos were sick with what appeared to be some type of flu but it was worse.... so I was in bed all day Monday recovering... and it sucked I'm still not a hundred percent right now but I'm better... It was funny because everyone at sports made me a nickname last week. Its Flewy. And so on Monday the Hermanas made me some get feeling better cards and its said, ''Flewy Flews got the Flu... I thought it was rather creative heheheh on Tuesday i woke up to a epidemic, out of twenty six norte americanos twenty of them were sick. I feel bad for our nurse Hermana Burbridge, shes been running around left and wirhgt constantly over here. And its spreading pretty fast my whole district got it but on Tuesday we all came to class anyway... and its funny when someone in our class makes a joke and we all laugh because then we all laugh but then hold our stomachs in pain which just makes us laugh harder... but ya im doing better though,, no ones dieing. but it has been an interesting experience and I've never been on so many drugs in my life. Funny story about this Tuesday morning after taking a lot of medication for the pain and other stuff that would be tmi to mention... that i had taken that night i woke up to find that somehow during the night I had woken up took my shirt off then put it back on backwards and inside out. And I didn't realize I had done it until I went into the room next door tome to check up on one of the sick sisters and she looked at me and was like ''did u wrestle with a bear last night flewy'' it was funny,, but at the same time might have been one of those you had to be there moments.... but anyway this is my last week at the CCM and I'm soooo excited but at the same time really sad.

This morning we went ot the temple and i said a gratitude prayer in the room and then just bursted into tears because I realized that this was my last time with my District and all the other amazing people that I love here. But on the bright side were all getting contact information and since three of the elders live in Cali our district has already made plans to meet up with the elders get back and go to six flags in cali since I've never been to six flags..! I have faith it will happen and we really do meet up heheheheh so as hard as next week will be I know that it will all be okay and all work out. I found out that there are 18 zones in Guatemala one being the poorest and eighteen being the recently redone area so its more rich... and my mission is covering zones 1-9 so I get the pretty low area which I am really excited about! Because I really want to go and teach people the gospel. I'm ready and i feel like I've plateaued in my Spanish at the CCM. So I know i'll have to get used to the life style but at the same time I know I'll have help because H.F put me where I am for a reason. So I'm happy to go and serve where ever.. hehe Last week we went to a ''mall" down a couple of blocks from the CC<. I was able to get a few things there and it was cool because we people were honking and waving from there cars at us. I realized that i used to do the same thing to the missionary's at home but it felt different being on the other end... a good different I might add... The people here are so humble and they have such a great respect for missionary's I love going up and just talking to the members. The people here are just amazing. And I realized how great of an influence the gospel has on people. Like I said before I feel like i've taken advantage of the gospel and I thought I new everything about the gosepel but in reality I new nothing until I came on my mission. I also really enjoy listening to the apostles talks. especially Elder Uchdorf after watching his Easter broadcast we watched a devotional that he did in 2006 about serving and it was sooo powerful and so inspiring.. Even if i don't feel like i need to be lifted up and I'm doing well, Uchdorf always finds a way to say something to inspire me or touch me. I'm so grateful for the prophets and the apostles. And for all the people in my life. I'm grateful for this ever lasting gospel and for a father in heaven that loves us more than we can even imagination. Before I end my letter I want to share with you guys a poem that I read constantly at the first couple of weeks here at the CCM its been a great reminded that I'm not along and was what I needed to here when I felt like the work is hard. Even in the CCM I learned just how hard and exhausting being a missionary can be but at the same time I know that its worth it and that were not alone no one said serving would be easy and if it was we wouldn't grow from it. I feel like my testimony and faith has grown IMMENSELY and i'm grateful for trials that H.F gives me because I know that hes giving me the opportunity to grow. I love all of you and I leave you with this poem. It makes me cry every time I read. I love you all! And I hope ur all doing well. Ur all in my prayers. This poem I had been wanting to send u for a while but didn't have a way to get it on the email but luckily Cheri sent it to me so I hope u all enjoy it!

The Alarm bell rings at 6:30, I stumble to my feet I grab my companions bedding and pull off his sheets

A groan fills the room, is it already time to rise? It seems like just a second ago I was able to shut my eyes.
The morning activities follow- study, prayer and such
When it’s time to leave the apartment, you feel you haven’t accomplished much

“We have a super day planned,”
My comp. says with a grin
I lowly utter a faithless breath,
“Yeah, if anyone lets us in.”

With the word of God and my faithful Schwinn, we ride off in the street Prepared to face another day of humidity and heat
It’s 9:30 in the evening, the day is almost through
My champion and I are riding home not accomplishing what we thought to do

We ride up to the mailbox, hoping to receive a lot
Only to look inside and hear my echo reverberate “air Box”
We go up to our apartment, the day is now complete
The only thing to show for our work is a case of blistery feet

It’s past 10:30 p.m. My companion is fast asleep,
Silence engulfs me all about and I begin to weep
In the midst of sadness, I kneel down to pray
I need to talk to father, but I’m not sure what to say

“Oh, Father” I begin, “What happened to us today?
I thought we’d teach somebody, but everyone was away
My hands, my aching hands- worn, hurt and beat;
If our area was any smaller, we’d have knocked every street”

“Why on missions are the days so much alike?
The only difference about today was the flat tire on my bike
Will you send some cooler weather? The heat is killing me
I sweat so bad, it gets in my eyes, it’s very hard to see”

“Why do I have to wear a helmet, isn’t your protection enough?
People always laugh at me, and call me stupid stuff
Please send us investigators so I may give them what they lack
I want to give them Books of Mormon, the weight of them hurts my back”

“And what about my family: They don’t have much to say
I’m sick of not hearing from home day after day after day
Oh Father, Why am I here am I just wasting time?
Sometimes I just want to go home, I’m sorry but that’s on my mind”

“My companion, Heavenly Father, what are you giving me?”
The way he rides his bicycle, I don’t think he can see
Now you have it, I can’t go on, I don’t know what to do
That, my Father in Heaven, is the prayer I have for you”

My prayer now finished, I stand up, then jump right into bed
I need my rest for tomorrow, we have another long day ahead
Sleep start to overtake me, I seem to drift away
Then it seems a vision takes me to another time in another day

I’m standing alone on the hill. The view is very nice
A man walks to wards me and says, “My name is Jesus Christ”
Tears of joy well up inside, I fall down to His feet
“Arise,” He states, “Follow me to the shade. You and I need to speak”

My attention’s towards my Savior, total and complete
He says, “Your mission is similar of what happened to me
I understand how you feel, I know what you’re going through
In fact, it would be fair to say I’ve felt the same as you”

“I even know how you felt when no one listened to you
At times I felt not quite sure what else I could do
I know you don’t like to ride a bicycle, for you a car would be sweet
Just remember the donkey I rode wasn’t equipped with 21 speeds”

“I understand you don’t like sweating, in fact it’s something you hate
I remember when I sweat blood from ev’ry pore, oh the agony was great!
I see you don’t like your companion- you’d rather have someone else-
I once had a companion named Judas who sold my life for wealth”

“It’s hard to wear a helmet and have people make fun of you
I remember when they put thorns on my head and called me King of the Jews
So you feel burdened down by the weight of your pack
I recall how heavy the cross was when they slammed it on my back”

“Your hands hurt from tracting and knocking on doors all day
I guess when they pounded nails into mine, I ached in a similar way
It’s hard not to hear from home when your family’s not there to see
I lost communication on the cross and cried, “Father, why hast Thou forsaken me?”

“We have a lot in common, but there’s a difference between us you see
I endured to the end and finished my mission, so follow and do like me”
He embraced me with His arms and His light filled me with His love
With tears in my eyes I watched as He went back to the Father above

I stood with awe and wonder when a beep rang in my head
I listened and heard the alarm, then realized I was in my bed
My companion let out a groan, “6:30 already, no way!”
I sat up and said, “Come on, I’ll even carry your scriptures today!”


Remember that none of us are ever alone. The lord is always with us!!! Again I love u all and hope everyone's well.! U may or may not hear from me next week since I'm going into the field... It depends on what my mission president says... BUT I'M EXCITED AND doing well. !!!!!!

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~Hermana Flewallen~ ;D

Learning and growning y hasta el fin!

Okay to start out I'm really happy to say that my companion and I got to teach Sunday lesson in district class which is like Sunday school class and it went really Well this past week multiple people in my district were having frustrating problems and were getting upset constantly with there Spanish. They started wondering why Heavenly Father sent them here. So my companion and I decided to base our lesson off of how do I know that I'm doing everything that god wants me to do and what is my purpose as a missionary. So we talked to them about our missionary objective and then I shared a part from my patriarch blessing, It says that I was born to live in this day. So i told them we were born to live in the last days, heavenly father saved not only me but also them and everyone after us . Heavenly father knew that we would be strong enough to endure to the end or hasta el fin and be able to be strong through the hard times leading up to the second coming. I also went on to say how we have not been alone once throughout these past two weeks. Every time our district was down we had a spiritual experience to knock us back onto our feet. I told them that i have seen Gods hands in our lives already and that they shouldn't be frustrated anymore. And that Heavenly father sent us to Guatemala for a reason. He knows us he knows our frustrations and he knows our fears and he will be right besides us to help us through everything. I personally am not frustrated, I know that as long as I try my best that the lord will help me accomplish everything. Multiple times people and scripture have said that the lord will help you accomplish his will for you and will not leave you alone. One of my new favorite scriptures that I had my distinct read is in d and C 68 verses 2 through 6. And this experience isn't just for my district, for anyone that feels like there load is to much or are frustrated in a calling or overwhelmed in schooling turn to the lord. I have a tip for all of you in school, when I was in school and had homework I always prayed and then read my scriptures for thirty minutes then prayed again and then started on my homework i can't tell you the improvement I had in my homework and studying when I found time for the lord through my busy schedule. To finish my story my district is now doing great! everyone is happy again and we have made it our distinct goal to not murmur and when we do murmur we have to say five things were grateful for. We also made it a goal to have at least two prayers of thanks only of what were grateful for to our father in heaven. and our last goal is to stay on task. I challenge you all to work along side me and my district on those goals as well and to be grateful to heavenly father for everything and not to murmur and know that if you have trials that you should pray in thanks because its father in heaven giving u an opportunity to grow. Another thing I want to cover is prayer, this week in relief society a good question was brought up that I always wondered about and probably many of you wonder about as well. It was how do I not repeat what I say in prayers they always say that repeating what you say in prayers isn't a good thing. And what they told us is if you repeat that your grateful for this day tell heavenly father why your grateful for this day..... tell the lord why your grateful.... why your happy.. why this was fun.... etc. Also we should all TAKE TIME TO PRAY. I have the hardest time with this when I'm so tired that i just say a fast prayer and then hurry and fall asleep but we should take the time to pray to our father in heaven he loves us and wants to hear from us. Take the time to talk to him and tell him what your thinking and feeling. Ask questions I've found myself asking heavenly father allot whether or not I'm doing all that I can and all that he wants me to do. Sometimes remember that we shouldn't ask for what we want but ask the Lord what he wants from us. Also remember that if he doesn't answer your prayers you should feel grateful because he trusts you to make the decision. And know that if you choose the wrong decision he won't let you go far down that path until he gives you the opportunity to get back onto the right path. Anyway, I had allot more to tell you but I ran out of time. I'll right more about that stuff next week. also one last thing, I'm reading the Book of Mormon looking for all of the one by ones like we were told to do so in conference. I challenge you to all do it with me and then to send me the scriptures as we go so we can do it together.

Love you all,
From your favorite missionary in Guatemala

~Hermana Flewallen~ ;D

CCM - THIS WEEK WAS AMAZING!

Hmmm where to start! THIS WEEK WAS AMAZING! its like last week was kind of a bad week and then it was all made up and fixed this week. I know that heavenly father loves each of us and he answers prayers. A part that I really liked from comference was that no matter whats going on in the world heavenly father will be there to answer your prayers. Speaking of comference I ABSOLUTLY LOVED IT! I felt like it flew by, the talks were amazing and I learned alot from alot of them. I have a few things that I want to highlight that kind of stuck out to me in comference but first I'll get the fun stuff out of the way so i can end on a spiritual note|! :) soooooo last week on tuesday they took us into the city east so it was cool to be able to see how my mission is going to be like. We went to a large map that they chizzled out in the cement and then you go to a tower to look over the whole map of guatemala that has the different areas and shows wheres theres mountains and where is flat so we can kind of see how our mission is going to be... we also got our CAMERAS so we all went picture crazy and I have alot of pics of the map and such.. so look forward in about three weeks for that. Its crazy how time flys by here... anyway after we went to the map we went to a underground market that had all kind of handmaid bags, shirts, skirts, decorative shoes and pens. The place was jammed pack with stores and it was really coool. I boutght some post cards and found out that you have to have exsact Gatzals when buying things at the market so I ended up getting the post cards cheaper becauyse I didn't have exsact change. Thats another thing we can bargin here its rather interesting and kind of fun. hehe On our way out of the underground market we ran into Elder Harris who is serving in my mission and had been out for about eight months and got to talk to him and ask him some queastions. Then we headed to wendys where I was able to order in spanish for the first time! It was weird eating fast food and the sad thing was there food tasted better than americans fast food. Our stomachs didn't like the change back to fast food though so multiple people got sick but luckiy for me I haven't been sick. Speaking of which Hermana Mckee the girl I came here with has been getting really sick lately and she also sprained her wrist... I feel bad for her. Something else that happened was Elder Borelace was really sick and had a bad fever and all kinds of stuff and we didn't know what cuased it to find out that somehting had bit him on the toe and it was all sollen and such. THere both doing better now though because of medication. Probably one of the highlights of this week is when Hermana Mckee asked Elder Borlace and Elder Hansen from our distric to give her a preistood blessing. This was the first blessing to.. But after Hansen did the first part Elder Borelace did the second part and started the blessing. I have never felt the spirit so strong in my life, the words that he spoke in the blessing I could tell were from the spirit. It was the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. I realized how important the preistood is and how much I want it in my family in the future. The preistood is probably one of the most amazingist things we have in this gospel and I have gained a testinonly on just how important and saced it is. And how we should all honor it.

So my district.. is amazing and funny! We have our own high school musical istead its a mission musical. One person starts singing or humming and we all start singing.. its alot of fun, we are also practicing a song as a dirstric thats the as sister in zion and the army of helman song from efy music and we've been sinign that. It really brings the sporit.

Another thing my district for some reason always do the most awckwardess and most embaressing things around each other since were always with each other. My companion we were running as a district in our best dress for a little activity and she totall trips and did a james bond move in her shirt.. It was really funny, the other ones are kind of intesting not bad or anything but they are defiintally embaressing and I don't feel like its my place to tell you without there permission hahaha my embaressing moment... well one of my embaressing moment that happened yeasturday was I was skipping to head inside and everyone was alll wallking inf ront of me and they all stopped but i didn't see that they did so i skipped and tripped over a stair and totally grabbed the back of my companion and sister Markeski who were in front of me and kind of dragged them down with me which created like a domino affect on everyone else... so now, me, hermana crouch, hermana Boulough, Hermana Mckee, Elder Borelace have all done somehting embaressing so were waiting for Elder Wright and Elder Williamson to do something embaressing next.. Oh, and before I forget I have a new move made after me its called the classical flewallen, the elders came up with it and its where you spike or hit any ball as hard as you can making if fly across the air and nearly hit someoen with it... We were playing a game in class like hot potato and so ecentually we got the point where we were just hitting the ball back and forth instead of tossing it so I finally got the point where I just spiked it as hard as I could slamming into the wall behind Elder Hansen.. So thus calling it the Classical Flewallen. I thought that was ki nd of funny.

So everyday at sports we play four square and I know what your all thinking... four square isn't a sport... But you haven't seen anytthing until you've played it with ym district and Distric Malakeas the preseidente and hermana Cox came out and watched us and they were wondering if we were going to end up killing osmeone. Its weird I'm going to go home in a year and a half and be a professional four squarer... but anyway we like to play the game fast and we like to just wack the ball into the other persons square.. its gets kind of intesnse, a girl almost broke her hand as well... but ya,, so thats sports.

So i have so much left to talk about but unfortunally I'm out of time so I'm going to tell you all what I really like about being here and about comference... So as I said last week wasn't the best week but then not this last sunday but the sunday before that we watched the christmas devotional by bednar this past christmas devotional to the missionarys vedio. And he told us not to get frustrated and a bunch of other things we really needed to here and it really brightened our spirits. Not to mention our feild trip out to the city kind of got us back on our feet again so that we can see what were worjing so hard inside of the ccm for.

This past week I got thinking that I needed to stop getting frustrated in myself and I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself and rather get to work. After comference me and my district got talking about what it must have been like before we came to earth. We came to the conclusion that our district was freinds in the pre exsistance and that we were all like see you in 19 years... I know that i have found alot of my friends that I knew in the pre exsistance here and back at home wiht all of you. I also believe that I was one of the people that stepped forward in the pre esistance and said to our father in heaven that I would serve him. I knwo that the moment I was born god remembered that promise I made and even though it took me a couple of years to remeber it I ended up going and serving my father in heaven. I love my mission, I love the happiness I am recieving. I no it will be hard but this week I have felt so much love from our father and such constant comfort from the savour that I'm not afraid and I know that this is where I need to be. I love my father in heaven and I know that he loves all of you. Im so greaful to be here and ive never been so happy in my life.

since I've grown up in the gospel I took advangtage of the gospel. I never understood why people got so excited about it when they were convereted i believed in the gospel but I was like its just the gosepl. But now that I'm not serving and studing the gospel and going to the temple every week i know how important the gospel really is and how i wished that i had realized it sooner. WHen we do baptizm for the dead along with the other temple ordinances for hte dead were letting people out of the prison that they are in and bnringin them into the light.

I think sometimes we get so destracted with the world around us that we forget the true reason why were here. Vedio games, college, reading, writing, playing with friends. I know I got distracted..There all things taht are good and and fun for us but the most important thing for us here on earth is to serve our father with our time, hearts, and talents that he has givein us. I love haiving the spirit as a constanct companion, i can feel te blessings of being a missinonary and also the joy and happiness I get from being one. I hope many of my friends and family are able to feel this joy some day and for those who don't want to go on a mission know that you can serve in other ways and that you are just as important to gods work. The gospel is true and heavenly father really does love each and everyo one of us. I know tha tin the future I want to serve another mission with my husband because I love this work so much. Unfortunally I only have about twenty seconds left so I wasn't able to share all my info I wanted to share but Know I love you all and your all in my paryers. Oh ps. I might be here for the re dedication of the ccm... love you all ur all amazing, thank you for all your letters and emails.

Love your favorite missionary in Guatemala

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~Hermana Flewallen~ ;D

19 de marzo foto distrito (1)

This is my district the elder from right to left is Elder Borlace then Elder Williamson then Elder Borlace and then Elder Wright. Up front is me then my companion Hermana Crouch and then Hermana Boulough then Hermana McKee. The elders arn't staning by there companions Elder Hansens with Elder Borlace... But this is my district!!! Jeramias! La INGLESIA IS TAN VERADERA! :)

~Hermana Flewallen~ ;D

Our special Nortes

Here are some pics that they took for us and uploaded on our going to the city field trip last Tuesday on our p day. Along with some pics of the temple ground.

Foto de Grupo 19 de marzo 2014

Foto de Grupo 19 de marzo 2014